KikinRJ

If I were to change Every single part of who I am Would it be enough for you? Would it be enough for you To love me as you should? Or would I need to continue to fight? Would I have to fight To gain your acceptance? Fight for your approval? If I went through life As the puppet on your strings, Would it be enough for you to love me? I feel the tugs back and forth Between who I am And who you think that I should be. We each have to feet to stand on And I want so much to feel the ground, Ground never under me because I am not enough. I have never made you proud, Constantly hidden away, The one you are ashamed of. I don't und

Could it be That this is happening to me? I feel the walls I built Starting to crumble around my feet. something about you Drives a hole right through Every bad thought I have Always had about myself. I can't explain the way Every touch weakens me, How every sweet thing you say Melts the very core of my being. You make me want more And make me want to be better. I want to become strong for you, And let go of all of my fears. I have been taught That I am nothing and no one That I am less than everything, Yet I feel you peeling that away. Don't break me, Carry my heart and keep it safe. Teach me to love, I want so much

I am leaving this with you, Something I beg of you to care for. Feel it in your hands, Know its every beat. Be gentle, it is fragile It has been broken before, What you see are the only peices That I was able to hold onto. Carry it with you Everywhere you go, Show it there is something Good left in the world. Should you feel the need To leave it behind Just smash it where you stand For it will no longer be any good to me. Feel it, Know its beat. Know that each and every one Sounds loudly just for you, My heart is yours

Relief, Like a wind expelled from Somewhere deep within me. You breathe in, Capturing my very essence, And set free my fears. To be near you, In your presence My knees become weak And give way. Catch me, Craddle me in your arms I am yours Completely.

Pull me into you And breathe me in Let your heart pound Beneath my hand Lying upon your chest. Take all my fears And make them fade away Protect me Hold me, Promise me you will always stay. I never imagined a moment Where I could let go Be free of the things That bind me from letting others in. Show me the world, Open my eyes and help me see. Show me there is good Show me I can be safe. Pull me into you.

Send a spark through me With each and every touch. A current passes Between where we collide. What is this lightning within me? Raging loud Leaving me standing on edge Waiting, anticipating. Your hands a storm Of feelings and emotions Leaving me frozen, Leaving me breathless.

Hold me as you fall asleep, Drift off to that wonderful place. I will keep watch, I will keep you safe. Snuggle me into your arms I will stay awake I will listen for the daemons, And keep watch for the monsters. When they come for you, While you sleep so innocently, I will fend them off Keep you from harm. So hold me tightly Wrap your arms about me, Sleep ever so soundly, Let me be your teddy bear.

Im a broken little hearted thing And always have been, I have been through hell And wishin this life was just a dream. I am haunted, unprotected Left lost and unwanted. Then out of nowhere, there you are Something about you has me enchanted. I feel like I am glued to the ground Afraid to make a sound, What if you are all that you seem to be Is it possible for love to be found? Can this heart mend? Or is this going to be a game of pretend? Come close, hold my hand, hold me And maybe I will be able to move in the end.

Tattooed behind my eyelids And singed into every part of me Are the monsters that haunt me at night. I am afraid to drift away I know what awaits me, Hidden beneath the bed In the closet Waiting to walk into my head. Nothing will ever Remove the daemons that Haunt me, taunt me, Tear my heart into peices. They created their passageways Dark, ugly and twisted. No matter the work that is done There are too many entrances For me to ever be free. I wish to be free But have become acustomed To the daemons That keep me company at night When I close my eyes. Haunted.

Dig your fingers in, Look for any support. Dont expect any help from me, I am waiting on the other side. I will be here waiting, Watching, Hoping for someone to find Enough caring in themselves To care about me more. Climb the walls that are up, Don't give up!! I'm not necessarily the best But I could be enough. Prove there is good in you, But I won't help you That is something you must do alone. Prove to me you care Show me what I am worth